F#@$ing Idiot.

ARGHHHH

I'm so annoyed!

Well today was really good.

Had my training for my new job this morning and that went really well. Then me, Helen and Lauren went missioning for sweets at various Netto stores which was rather amusing! Then we went to Mcdonalds and observed Lauren being broody and Helen being sick =/.

Then Lauren was meant to ring me at night and as i had nothing else planned i really looked forward to that!

Then Claire Daly rang me. This little skank has known me since year seven and she recently got pregnant to a moron and he fucked off and left her.

So she was really upset and asked me to town and she'll pay... I didn't want to as i was in bed and waiting for Lauren to ring me but because of her situation i did, rang Lauren telling her and then got ready.

I had to walk there and it was so cold being the middle of December!

When i got there i met Claire then she left me in town on my own with no money to fuck off with Jamie! So i had to go home on my own! I had been there for a total of an hour and as i was walking home i was moaning to Lauren about it on the phone then her phone died so i had to walk home with no coat, in the cold in silence...

... GUTTED.

Being in love.

My friend Luana said this to me on msn tonight.


LUANAHITCHENBABEY,(L) (MrsPower,MrsHanley,MrsFurlong+MrsMarsden) says:
we went for a walk 2 sort things outtt ,, n all hes mates showed up :@ so i went ryt im goin ,, he got my by the arm n sed noo stay please ,, held my hand n walked or 2 emm ,, n sed ryt listen uu dnt like her dats uur prob! i love her ryt ? n looked at me n Kissed me :) n dai all went fuckin ell reay uu lovin sum1 ,, n he goes ye and ur prob is ? dai went uu cud off got sum1 decent ,, n by dis tym i was nearlly cryin :( n he sed look at ur girls ,, in mini skirts and ardly ani close ,, more make-up dan i fuckin hoe and den look at myn ,, wearin my manu top wen shes a bburn fan ,, jeans ,, shes gowjuss ,, n ardlly ani make-up coz she dunt need it. he goes wen have uu ever heard ur girl say i love you ? n his 'bestmate' went never ,, he goes derr yah go den , i have the better girl!

How beaut is that :)
I mean seriously, being in love is the best feeling in the world.
She said "wearin my manu top wen shes a bburn fan" and to be honest to a football fan that's a big thing.
I wear Laurens Chelsea top when i'm a Man Utd fan.
Today Lauren proper acted like she was in love with me, she was all over me in town and she kept telling me how much she loved me.. In person.
Then on MSN she was being REALLY nice.
It's an amazing feeling love.

I decided what song i'm singing on X Factor
Broken Strings - James Morrison.

Over and out.

X FACTORRRRRRRRRRR

Oh yes, I'm off again.
Even though i had to wait for seven hours in a que with wierd Irish people and had to get up at like 5am... I'm doing it !
Got through three auditions last time so I'm excited!
But i can't sing like i used too.
Anyway.
Did my christmas shopping today.
So so far i have got:
MUM - A bottle of Baileys.
DAD - Nothing cause he's a prick.
BECKII - Impulse gift pack, sweets.
MEGAN - CD, sweets.
HELEN - Book, Photo Album. (She already knows ¬¬)
LAUREN - PCD Tickets, Britney Spears perfume, High School Musical perfume, necklace, Chelsea calender.
BARRY - The Hoosiers album, sweets.
DEAN - Chain, sweets.
GRANDMA - Sweets.
GRANDAD - Sweets.

LEFT TO BUY -
CASSY - ??
RACH - ??
LAUREN - Gok Wans book or Paul O'Gradys book... Dependant on what she chooses tomorrow.

So yeah.
I'm going christmas shopping with her tomorrow and I'm excited cause i haven't seen her since sunday!!

Nothing left to say i'm afraid.
Over and out.

Helen tagged me, the little bugger.

So the idea of this is to list six things that make you happy and then tag six people to do it!

GIRLS ALOUD

I'm sorry but they really do. There music proper boosts me and the lyrics tend to be quite meaningful.
And there's no denying they're rather attractive!

MY FIANCEE

My baby. My world. My everything. Need i say anymore?

JAPANESE FIGHTER FISH

So yeah, recently i have started to bum over Japanese fighter fish. I had one called Carol (all of my fish are called Carol) and she got diseased and died :(.

But basically i think they are so cool, they come in loads of diff colours and i right like them so this had to be one.

DRIVING

Especially with the Besties. Knowing you can go anywhere, do anything and get lost alot.. Makes me feel so free and makes me a little adventurous (sp?).

MY BEST FRIENDS

They're mint, end of.

HOT CHOCOLATE

Makes me happy, no matter what.

I have no friends on blogger that i can think of that aint done this.
So just give it a bash kids?

Stress.

Yes i have it, REAL bad.

I mean, my life should be perfect right?

• Parents still together
• Have a car
• Engaged to a beautiful girl
• Got a great bunch of friends
• Going on holiday in July.

I mean yeah, should be perfect but it's not!

After being kicked out last week i can't be in the house at the same time as my dad anymore. He's so abusive and totally reminds me of how he used to be with us. He came in this afternoon and started on me for no reason. I mean how come i can't be home when he is?!
It's just not fair!!

Looks like i have to sell Gina next year. Not fair since she gave the besties loads of good memories and i have to walk to Laurens every night now.

Me and Lauren have argued so much recently. Lauren says it's because i changed to be good but then changed back and i can see what she means but it's understandable with everything i've been going through recently. I really miss the way things were with her and i think i'm going to have to change again because i know that if i lose her it'd kill me!
She seems like she's been so off with me recently, i don't blame her though with everything ive been putting her through. I just want her to know that i am in love with her, even if i don't act it all the time.
:(

Emma Connor fucks me off!
She keeps ringing my house and texting me wanting me to see her, not getting the hint that i hate her and never want to see her again. I mean after threatening Lauren i wouldn't let ANYONE back into my life, never mind a person who i already hated. Now she's saying its all my fault her lifes going a tad bad atm.. JOIN THE CLUB!

And the Besties holiday is booked. That should be good!
Only thing i have to look forward too

:(

The start of a new era.

In which i write blogs with real titles.
So this week has been hideous.
I got thrown out this weekend, slept in my car one night (which is SO uncomfortable, cold and just plain NASTY) then crashed in Laurens bed the second before finally being allowed home on the third night.
I dont really have anything to blog. Just wanted to do one really :)

Shut up and drive

RIHANNA

Oh my god. I think i actually am going to cry. I've had the worst two days in the whole of the entire universe!!
Right... so... It all began on wednesday when me and Lauren had to pick up Helen from rehersal at 5pm. We went at five but totally didn't see her and Lauren said the theatre lights were off so we went away home thinking she had got on the bus. Then when we got home i felt really bad so we drove back and on the way there Lesley rang us saying that Helen was waiting at lower school, the time now being half past five. So with the traffic we finally got there at six and i volunteered to take Cassy home. As we were going Helen was obviously a little peeved and after getting bollocked by her dad, was letting off steam. Me, being me, decided to start singing leading Helen to belive i was muttering something against her. So we had a big bust up which intensified when we got home as we both thought the other was wrong. A bit stupid but thats me and our H for you. Love to hate each other. So then i went away and thursday night i couldn't see the girls as they were going christmas shopping which didn't actually turn out to be christmas shopping. I saw Lauren and Helen in town with Georgina whilst i was with Dean. Helen ignored me and so off i went in more of a mood than i normally am (which is normally pretty bad). Then i went to my grandmas to collect some stuff and was told by my grandad that he thought i had stolen £60 whilst at his house for the weekend. I TOTALLY NEVER! I was with Lauren every second whilst we was there other than going to the toilet which is no where near the living room where the money was kept. We weren't even in that room we was in the bedroom doing my speech most of the time. Which still isn't done! So anyway, my grandad said he wanted the £40 he paid me for going round back.. And that i was no longer welcome at the house... EVER. I'm obviously going to be upset at the fact that i've been banished from my own grandparents house and that they think i could steal from them. So i went i decided to go on a night round town with Dean to take my mind off things. I went to visit Lauren who made me feel a bit better about it and buttoned up my top for me :)
Then round town at about half eleven in Karisma i had my drink spiked.. We left just after and went to Priory where i had a fit and collapsed... So we left for home and whilst walking i repeatedly collapsed and so we changed courses and headed for the infamous Doncaster Royal Infirmary. I couldn't see straight never mind walk the two miles to the hospital, and not due to drink.. Due to the drug added. I collapsed again banging my head on a pavement, knocking myself out and falling awkwardly on my wrist. Dean had to firemans lift me to the hospital, bless him. Once there we had to wait hours and hours to be seen (you think im kidding, im really not). I had to have four X-rays on my wrist as they thought it was broken, have blood tests for the spiked drink and had one hell of alot of tablets for the splitting headache! I found out my drink had been spiked with Rohipnal (seriously guys, thats a date-rape drug?!) and i had badly sprained my wrist.
So then we had to walk home and finally arrived at half eight in the morning, and because i couldn't tell my mum where i'd been (as i wasn't allowed town), i had to act bright and fine without any injuries.
So now i'm going to go to bed seen as i've had no sleep in over 24 hours and wake up around mid-day to check bebo comments as to the arrangement for Helens play tonight. Can't wait for that, even if i am poorly!
Anyway, that's my dispicable life.

Hero

Mariah Carey


i need to be in the mood to write blogs, and i'm not..
So here's a quiz.

Name :
David
Nick Name :
Dave/Bubble Boy/Super Dave
Birthdate :
29/05/1990
Current Location:
Living Room
Eye Color:
Blue
Hair Color:
Brown
Height:
6ft.
Weight:
9stone
Piercings:
None
Tatoos:
Two, One On My Back And One On My Wrist.
Boyfriend/Girlfriend:
Nope, Bit More ;]
Vehicle:
Vauxall Corsa (GINA!)
Overused Phrase:
Wazzack/Bint/Nut
FAVORITES
Food:
Noodles
Pub/Disc/Restaurant:
Relish Or Central Park
Sweet:
Twirls?
Number:
2
Color:
Blue/Red
Animal:
Fishh
Drink:
Red WKD/Fanta Fruit Twist/Watermelon Bacardi Breezer
Body Part on Opposite sex:
Does Hair Count?
Perfume:
On Me - Joop Jump; On Lauren - Midnight Fantasy
TV Show:
Hollyoaks/Desperate Housewives/The Bill
Music Album:
Out Of Control - Girls Aloud
Movie:
Amityville Horror
Actor/Actress:
Elle Fanning
This or That
Pepsi or Coke:
Pepsi
McDonalds or BurgerKing:
McDonalds
Chocolate or Vanilla
Chocolate
Hot Chocolate or Coffee:
Hot Chocolate
Kiss or Hug:
Both
Dog or Cat:
Cat
Rap or Punk:
Punk
Summer or Winter:
Summer
Scary Movies or Funny Movies:
Scary
Love or Money:
Both.. But Probs Love.
YOUR...
Bedtime:
Usually Around Midnight
Most Missed Memory:
Dome Camp
Best phyiscal feature:
On Me? Geez None :L
First Thought Waking Up:
I Can Have Another Hour :)
Ambition:
Open A Clothes Shop
Best Friends:
Helen & Cassy
Weakness:
Lauren =/
Fears:
Canals
Longest relationship:
Nearly 5 Month
HAVE YOU...
Cheated Your Partner:
:O NO!
Ever been beaten up:
Yes ¬¬
Ever beaten someone up:
Yeah
Ever Shoplifted:
Sort Of?
Ever Skinny Dipped:
Noo
Ever Kissed Opposite sex:
Yes
Been Dumped Lately:
No :)
IN A GUY/GAL
Favorite Eye Color:
Blue
Favorite Hair Color:
Brown
Short or Long:
Long
Height:
Smaller Than Me But Not Too Short
Style:
Any Really
Looks or Personality:
Both
Hot or Cute
Cute
Muscular or Really Skinny:
Not Muscular :
RANDOMS
What country do you want to Visit:
Egypt
How do you want to Die:
In My Sleep
Been to the Mall Lately:
Noo
Get along with your Parents:
Noo
Health Freak:
A Bit
Do you think your Attractive:
Noo
Believe in Yourself:
Sometimes
Want to go to College:
I Do
Do you Smoke:
Nope
Do you Drink:
Yess
Shower Daily:
Yess
Been in Love:
I Am
Do you Sing:
I Try
Want to get Married:
Obvs ;]
Do you want Children:
Yess, A Girl
Age you wanna lose your Virginity:
Bit Personal Tar
Hate anyone:
Yes

What Hurts The Most

CASCADA


QUIZZZZZZZ


EVERYONE HAS THEIR FIRSTS:
FIRST REAL BEST FRIEND: Naomi Kenworthy
FIRST SCHOOL: Kirkby Avenue
FIRST CELL PHONE: Nokia Brick Phone
FIRST FUNERAL: My Great Grandads
FIRST PET: Tiny The Dog
FIRST BIG TRIP: Tunisia
FIRST FIGHT: Carl Hackett
FIRST CELEBRITY CRUSH: Britney Spears
FIRST TIME OUT OF THE COUNTRY?: Tunisia
FIRST JOB: Smith Bros
FIRST BEBO FRIEND: Sammbo & Daniiee
EVERYONE HAS THEIR LASTS
LAST PERSON I HUGGED: Lauren
LAST CAR RIDE: Home From Laurens
LAST TIME I CRIED?: Last Week
LAST MOVIE I WATCHED: The Shining
LAST FOOD I ATE: Noodles
LAST ITEM BOUGHT: Christmas Present
LAST SHIRT WORN: Grey Gio-Goi One Now
LAST PHONE CALL: To The Answerphone
LAST TEXT MESSAGE: Megan
LAST THING I TOUCHED: Keyboard
LAST FUNERAL: Uncle Peters
LAST TIME AT THE MALL: Last Week
LAST TIME I WERE EXCITED FOR SOMETHING: Earlier Today
LAST PERSON I SAW: Mum
LAST THING I DRANK: Tea
LAST PERSON THAT BROKE MY HEART: Nobody
LAST TIME I WERE REALLY HONESTLY HAPPY?: Yesterday

Miss You Bow Wow

GIRLS ALOUD


Well haven't wrote in a while.
So this week has been eventful.
I've had two fillings because i had a hole inbetween my teeth, Lauren pressured me to go to the dentist so i did. Glad i did though to be fair haha.
I had an allergic reaction to some sleeping pills, i took them cause Lauren did and my face had swollen up real bad, and im not allowed to college for a week. Who knows why. But that means i get to go and Grannie-sit with Helen tomorrow, then i'm picking Lauren up from school and we have Caladoneon. I'm glad Lauren comes there with me, she gets on so well with everybody there and its nice to have a good looking girl on my arm to show off (i of course dont mean to sound like a schovonistic pig though lol).
Ermm.. im waiting on Lauren getting back from training now so i can go over.
Im so bored.

Im stealing this off some girls blog that i read.

nows:
listening to: the drone of my fish tank filter.
drinking: fanta fruit twist.
mood: fed up.
thinking about: tomorrow.

Over and out.

Love Is The Key

Girls Aloud

4 things that I did today...
1. Went to college, studying road traffic accidents.. Lovely.
2. Had a bit of a sing along to Girls Aloud.

3. Worked on Laurens song.
4. Bummed about on Bebo.

4 things on my to-do list
1. Finish Laurens song.
2. Christmas shopping.
3. Book Benidorm.
4. Book tickets for Scotland at new year.
4 guilty pleasures
1. Cheesy pop music.. :)
2. Bacon, seriously.. I would never say no.
3. Erm.. im not saying the third one, but i thought it ;]
4. Watching rubbish morning programs like GMTV.
4 random facts about me
1. I have a tattoo of a Scottish thistle.

2. I really DONT do mornings.
3. Lager makes me sick.
4. I relate most of my memorys to songs, so when i hear that song i think of the memory... Got a beaut one to 'One Step At A Time' by Jordin Sparks.

:)

Rusty Halo

The Script

"Next day i'm your super girl out to save the world, and it keeps getting better"
The rest of that song from before.

So today has been quite good.
Picked up my girls and Baz from school then had tea at Laurens.
Then we went for a mission where we fell out, made up, i nearly got drowned, planned a 'hot day' tomorrow (which i swear to god i cant wait for!!!!!!) and then went back home as i had dancing.
My grandma was telling me today about how her and my grandad got together when she was sixteen and they got engaged on my grandmas eighteenth (like me and Lauren plan), moved in together when she was nineteen (like me and Lauren plan) and got married when she was twenty (like me and Lauren plan). She said if its serious then we should start saving just a couple of quid a week but by the time we get married at twenty we'll have quite a bit, so me and Lauren agreed on the idea. My grandma proper understood me about my relationship with Lauren cause she has had the young romance that your parents didnt really belive in.. It was lovely hearing her stories about what it was like when they were dating, sounds EXACTLY like me and Lauren :)
I think i'm on my way to being BEST FRIENDS properly with my Helen. Which is good cause i love her tons and she knows it, we get on so well cause we're so different and we often bounce ideas and stuff off each other.
Then tonight i went to Laurens to watch DH...
OMFG LAURENS HALLOWEEN COSTUME..
BEAUT OR FUCKING WHAT!!!
I can't wait for that night :)

Anyway im gonna go to bed happy tonight.
And im gonna do my DH in bed, I PROMISE :D

Mambo

Helena Paprizou

"some days i'm a super bitch, up to my old tricks but it wont last forever."
Thats me ;)
I'm gonna behave. No arguments with my Helen and no strops with my Lauren.
I dont want to lose Helen and if i carry on i will.
So i agree to behave, i promise.

I'm picking Lauren up from school tonight, then staying with her till seven.
I need to clean my room cause i don't want to stay out with Lauren in the car until seven and her dad will be home. But i cant be arsed. I should really.

Hmm.. Decisions.

Keeps Getting Better

CHRISTINA AGUILERA

I dont show emotion to a certain type of person.
I person i feel to be in major control, and a person i respect way too much, like parents, teachers and this one particuar girl.
I know i went way to far last night and i dont want it to be the end of us.
My mistakes come quite often and i understand it's a constant challenge to remain my friend.
I didnt put it in my blog cause id feel you think it was a sob story but the majority of the upset today was cause i betrayed my best friend and i feel so bad.
Helen.
I know its only a word, but i mean it from the bottom of my heart.
I'm sorry.
x

Before The Worst

The Script

Well after a day of worrying, i didn't get finished :)
She actually did just wanna talk to me about everything and get my side of what happened. I never realised Helen thought i asked Hafid to ask Helen if i was possesive, which i clearly never.
We had a right good talk again tonight, and i still feel like i want to be with her for the rest of my life.
So thats an update on my depressing day!

Girls

Sugababes

"Sometimes it takes a disaster to learn a lesson"
GEE YA THINK?!

Well i've just got up at twenty five past one, i rang in college saying i was sick today but the truth is i'm in pieces.
I had a big argument with Helen last night.
I convinced myself that she hates me and got Hafid to ask her but he told me something she said about me which wasn't to nice to hear from your best friend. But then she says i made Hafid betray her which to be fair i did but i didn't mean for THAT to happen =/
And now this morning i got a text from Lauren saying "Im catching school bus home tonight.ill text you when im home cos i need to talk to you. loveyou x"
Meaning by the end of today i wont have a girlfriend.
I totally don't know what i'd do without Lauren! So that explains why i've been in bed crying since ten past eight this morning.
We're meant to be going to my Grandmas for dinner tonight, how do i explain that i dont go out with Lauren no more? She loves Lauren and it makes her happy to know i've finally got a nice girlfriend and she will more than likely get to come to my wedding. But if she finishes me then i know for a fact it'll break her heart, aswell as mine.
I really do love Lauren and i'd do anything for her, its a shame that one little mistake is about to ruin everything good in my life.

The Promise

Girls Aloud


Well todays been rather.. SHIT
My dad hit me today, the bastard is giving up drink and so feels he needs to get rid of his fustrations on me..
I was meant to be at Laurens tonight but shes tired so i was condemed to home where he decided to start cause i had music on too loud last night.
I had to tell Amy to get fucked today, she wants to be friends again and i dont cause all i do is get used and hurt, i just cant take it. Emma's not so bad but Amy's the worst.
Im always being asked out just for booze then getting fucked off by them..

Im sick of making small talk with people, i really am. I might delete every bar two or three on msn (:

Laurie and i had a right good talk today, we've got really close recently and i reckon its forever.

Anywayyyyyy am off t argue (Y)

Breakeven

THE SCRIPT

Well this weekend has been, rather.. different?
Me and Helen had yet another argument at football. I'm not going to talk about that, she knows what i think and how i'm willing to change.
Me and Lauren had the most AMAZING heart to heart ever (:
We proper spoke about things that upset us, our fears, our goals, our family issues and what we love each other.. Then i let her take me to the edge of the canal which is good to say i have a MASSIVE fear of canals. Then today we went for a walk at the nature reserve near sprotborough and it was well good talking about our future together, just little things like that make my day.
She really makes me day. She's the most important thing in my life and i love her so much, she doesn't understand what she means to me and i'd be more than lost without her. I swear i've never been so in love.
Anywayy cba to type, sorry :)

I Turn To You

Christina Aguilera

OMFGGGGGG

Seriously :[
My mum's gotta go for a meeting at school today.
Rebecca (my sister) told her teacher at school that she had a bad dream about when our dad used to beat us up and so the teacher reckons he still does it and she's concerned for her welfare.
My mum thought it was cause of stress and i just told her the real reason.
Then my mum started crying and cause i was at the top of the stairs and she was at the bottom i went down to hug her, and she said "i do everything for you kids and its never enough, you turned into a demon child and she's heading in the same direction".

YOU FAT SLAG SHUT THE FUCK UP!
She had the cheek to say "You may of got a smack harder than you should of done but she never"
ERM I THINK SHE DID, WE WAS BOTH BEAT UP FOR EIGHT YEARS OF OUR FUCKING LIFE WHILE YOU WAS OFF AT WORK IF YOU EVER BOTHERED TO FUCKING NOTICE?!
I need to get out of this fucking house!
I would move into my Nanas but its too much messing about and i'd have no internet, Lauren wouldnt be allowed over and id not be allowed town.
Seriously though my mother thinks that because i had a bad stage last year and earlier this year that im still the little gremlin i was before, which im really not. Laurens changed me for the better. Oh and she complains im never in and she wishes she could see me a bit more! Tuesday night when i stayed in she never said a word to me AT ALL.

Fuck sake woman, i hate you.

Tattoo

JORDIN SPARKS

MORNINGGGG!

Well i've never got up so early in donkeys :]
Last night me and Helen slept at my nannas, it was amazingly shit!
We had a cool mission up to Sprotborough Canal first like then back to Laurens house where Lauren told me that Danny Riley had asked her out and said "go out with both of us and see which one you feel comfortable with".. And my beaut girlfriend told him where to stick that idea :]
So...
Im poor, owe out £40 and am well overdrawn on my bank account cause of my phone bill.
Argh!
Anyway must go wrestle with my hair ready for college...

I Could Be The One

STACIE ORRICO



Haha here's the letter i sent to Morrisons about me leaving, im well proud.


Dear Jill,
I am writing to let you know that I will not be coming in anymore as I no longer wish to work for the Doncaster store. After numerous complaints about bullying and asking to be moved departments, nothing was done and I am still expected to attend?! This is not up for negotiation. I also got a letter about the disciplinary on 14th October at around 1pm, when the hearing itself was 14th October at 11am, very well organised I must say.
Please arrange a time when I can return my uniform and locker key.


Yours sincerely





David Hunter


Im mint yes?

Miss Independant

BY NEYO - download it kids ;)

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
YOU FUCKING ANNOY ME AND I HATE YOUUUUUU
(to blogger)
i just generally hate writing blogs, but i know i have to or i get clinically depressed about stuff haha.

So, weekend from HELL.

Began at half ten saturday morning, with me and Helen going to watch Lauren play football.
*before i begin, Helen, dont complain cause you did your version in your blog ;)
I told Lauren i was gonna come watch her every week after Maria told me about Lauren getting upset all the time about nobody coming to watch her. When i mentioned this to Helen she wasnt too impressed and said that it was just her mum, which i can understand but surely the girl needs some support (and to be fair im not saying that because Lauren's my girlfriend, im saying that because any girl would want somebody to be there, even just watching.) But NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO this counts as me being a dick. So i'll end that topic abruptly as me and H agreed we would both go as often as we can, as a team (:

Then me and Lauren did something which i cant remember, then i came around again later to find Mitchell pissed out his face on Laurens living room floor. After having a HUGE argument with my dad, getting hit and thrown out.. little comments from the little bastard proper got to me. But i couldnt tell anyone because i dont like people knowing things about my family cause its so fucked up. After witnessing him grope my girlfriend and hurling abuse at me i decided i couldnt take it and went upstairs to do something im not too proud of. Then when i came down Mitchell was on the floor at the bottom of the stairs so i leant over and said "come on mate" and he said "david?" and i said "yeahh?" and leant further forward to listen to what he was about to tell me and he grabbed my by the hair and swung to hit me in the face so i grabbed his arm clutching my scalp and pushed it down. At which point Helen walked around the corner screaming at me because she thought i had pushed Mitchell over, which i hadn't. I proper couldnt take being shouted at anymore so i had to get out. I ran to the end of the street, sat on the curb and cut myself again. Its stupid, it wasnt as such a release, it was a cry for help. So i walked back into the house to have Lauren tell me i was in trouble with Helen. I walked over and she gave the dirtiest look possible and raised her eyebrow (which she stole from me). I said "Helen i've got a problem" and she replyed "Yeah, me.". Total Helen and David quote there.
Anyway after i told her, and smeared blood on her, (sorry Helen) i realised that no matter how much my best friend hates me at times, she's always going to be there for me.
Then again today Mitchell and Barry were hitting me outside my car and so i kicked them back as Lauren locked the car from the inside and i couldn't just stand there. And Mitchell got all aggresive and hurled me against the car then put me in a headlock, pushing my head into the car wingmirror which broke off (cunt). Then i got in the car, totally pissed off at this, and Lauren had a go and so i snapped and shouted back. She wouldnt even touch me so then we had to go and make up, i know im a dickhead to Lauren sometimes and i do take alot of stuff out on her but its because i know i can do it and not lose her. I know that it upsets her and so im going to stop it. I told her i'll change for her but she said not to, im perfect how i am, she just doesn't like it when we argue.
Bless.
Then again im not saying all of this weekend was terrible.
Me and Helen had a cool little mish to find icing.
Me and Jessica had fun playing about (i dont get to do much with Jess, just me and her, so it was cool to sorta bond).
Me and Lauren told each other what we love about each other.
Lauren got something in her hair ;).
Me and Lauren went bowling.
Finally got my Desperate Housewives episode started on FanFiction.
Me and Luana planned our next mission.
Went out for Beckiis birthday.
Might of found ANOTHER new job.

So yeah.
Thats my weekend pretty much.

When I Grow Up

Oh My Days, Can't Belive Ive Been Doing Song Titles And I Didnt Do This Beast Of A Song!

Anywayyyyy.
Opening night for 'Charlie and the chocolate factory' was tonight and the play itself was average. But my god, the second act wasn't half amazing! It was full of sketches and i swear to god i loved every minute.
First we did 'City Watch' in which i play a drunk glaswegian (sp?) called Daz who happens to be in a chip shop. It was really funny and we got tons of laughs. Then the next time i was on was for 'No place like Rome' and i was a very gay roman called Dubious. I swear to god i love this character, you can have so much fun with him. Dont think our Lauren was too impress mind. Got ALOT of laughs and managed to pinpoint a member of the audience and embarres him, and when i was offstage i heard him ranting about wanting to leave. LOL!
Then we left and me and Lauren made up about everything, i've really missed her these last few days and i dont want for her to get bored. We're meeting up tomorrow, only for two hours and that's all im getting till sunday so i'll have to make these two hours drag so it feels like im with her for longer ;] ahaa.
I proper want to start writing. I used to and i used to be well good but i really cant anymore. Helen inspires me but im still shit. So tonight im gonna climb into bed and give it a go :)
Oopht forgot to mention..
The Besties were planning on rocking Scotland this month but doesn't look like we can. I was SO excited for that! PROPER gutted man.
Anyway
Am Off To Write.
Innah Bizzle ;]

Waiting

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
Im not happy!
So GG totally got me in the dog house.
She asked me for a lift then made out to everybody i was going to drive her down a country lane and touch her up!
She made Lauren think that i think she can't trust me which to be honest isn't true, i know Lauren trusts me and i trust her just as much!
And so in a total mood last night i sent a right abusive text and now i think Lauren will get mad about it all and i'll end up losing her.
Me and Claire had a right good afternoon bitching about the whole situation.
She's off ill and i have the afternoon off.
Meeting Helen tonight, lets see how much trouble im in.

Forgive Me

Yes another song title as my blog title.
Leona Lewis tonight.
So this week we began full on rehersals for our production which opens on thursday.
Its sold out for the full run, thats proper good.
So yesterday was technical rehersals, to be honest we didn't do all that much.. it was more for us to help make props and shit but instead me and Laura went to the shop, bought 2 bottles of irn bru WKD and put it in a normal irn bru bottle and got pissed. It's a little wierd at PYT cause boht Laura and Megan fancy me so its scary being alone with either of them incase they come onto me haha.
Tonight was dress rehersals and it was SO funny! We just laughed onstage for the full two hours!
Even though i was really shit, i got told i was good and my characters keep getting better.. BONUS :)
Opening night tomorrow, my mum, grandma and some other losers are coming from my family BUT my best ever friend and herr beaut sister (who just happens to be my amazing girlfriend) are coming with some of H's cronies. I was thinking, although me and Helen aren't as close as her and Cassy/Hafid (dependant on who she's loving at that moment) she proper is all i have got apart from Laurie. I don't let her know how amazing she actually is (based on the fact everyone else does it and she will sooner or later have to use the back door). So im clinging onto her at the moment. And im taking her to town friday night!
Anyway i ran outta things to say so am off :)

I Hate This Part

So the weekend began on friday with Lauren sleeping at my house. Although it wasn't a crazy pissed up sleepover it was nice just laid cuddling on the sofa watching films together. Even thought my dad came home pissed and wouldnt let us move a muscle incase we decided to have sex while he was sat opposite us?! Idiot.
Saturday night me, Helen, Lauren and Cassy went to watch 'The Strangers' at the cinema in Meadowhall. We took a long drive as we were early whih turned out to be a blessing as i got VERY lost. We did however find a nice diner where me and Helen are going to go one day.
The film was good, the deranged ticket lady wouldnt let us sit together and decided in all her wisdom to spilt us up into pairs even though when we got inside we sat together anyway. Intelligent.
After the film we went hyper in mcdonalds laughing about anything, having fun and being immature. To be honest i've never been so happy.
Then we went onto Elmfield park for half an hour, finally arriving home at around two am.
Sunday was Lauries birthday so we took her to Clumber Park for a not so secret picnic which was really fun :)
We took around 180 photos.
Thought i'd update on my weekend.

The Man Who Cant Be Moved

To be honest, im a shit friend.
What i did to Helen tonight was too bad, i ruined what we had going and abolished the trust we had.
Wanker Wanker Wanker.

Seven Things I Hate About You

In note form:
Well haven't wrote in a while, due to the fact i may aswell be retarded and forgot my password.
Alot has happened since i last wrote, i was disowned by my auntie for reasons i wont mention. The bitch un-invited me to her wedding, good thing she didnt find out about a full scale piss-up and other people sleeping in her childrens beds.

Me and Helen had a moment in WHSmiths today, unsure of the motives but i'll work on that, i dont think i'm an important part of her life as i thought i was to be quite honest.
Me and her cousin Sarah had a heart to heart in town the other week, i told her everything and she told me everything which i told Lauren (with Sarahs permission) and upset her family. Her brother started on me in town, wanted to hit me.. Fuck knows why to be quite honest.

Argh cba, i'll write when i'm bothered.

Disturbia

Haven't wrote in a while, thought i may aswell.
Erm not much has changed, apart from our Lauren.
Not that shes changed, more that our relationship has.
Not bad, i'll explain.
I'm in the most serious relationship i've ever had with the only person i've ever properly loved.
This is mainly because we was best friends before but there's been no bad side effects of this! Helen still loves her, me and Lauren are totally loved up and everythinggs perfect.
Nothing really to report, just thought i'd update.
Helen, Lauren and Cassy are meant to be sleeping at my aunties since she's on holiday tomorrow night but i doubt they will, nothing really goes to plan for me.

Hi Guys!

Ahaa.
Well today's been alright, working 11am - 6pm and i was meant to be going out with our Lauren but she cancelled because she's ill.
I'm really not looking forward to tomorrow, doing 8am - 6pm on the deli, fun fun fun.
I stayed up until about half three this morning talking to my girls, possibly the explanation of Laurens illness tbh.
And monday should be good! Even though i'm slightly scared as if i get caught i'll get in ALOT of trouble =P

Aah lifes good man =)

I'm Not Kidding..

Today Was Mint !
We went to watch a stupid film, bad idea, which Lauren enjoyed but i really didn't!
Then we went to mcdonalds where i parked badly and put my milkshake in Laurens hole once she finished fingering it ? ahahahaha.
Then we went to Cusworth Hall after Lauren decided we was turning right.
Helen made a great co-pilot tbh!
We was bopping along to Leona and Sugababes, quite enjoyed that drive :)
So yeah, at Cusworth we decided to find me a mirror and as the girls decided to abandon me i was consiquently raped by Lesley Garrett.
After playing in MY tunnell, me and Loz had a fight which I WON.
Helen decided she was the official HLD photographer, seen as im shit and Lauren just wont.
I proper enjoyed today and to top of my life being AMAZING i've started seeing Lauren :)
God, can life get any better?!

Oh My Days

I wrote a really depressing blog earlier and now im going to change it because nothing in life can be THAT BAD.
I mean, although i found out 98% of my friends are two faced back stabbing wankers, i know ive always got two i can rely on, my girls.

HLD :D
love you two tbf,
x

I Told You You'd Live To Regret It

Right so i've been to town tonight, slightly tipsy but i know what i'm on about.
Drunken minds speak sober hearts and what not.
I got this girls number in town, called Lucy, shes 6 months older than me but looks alot older.
She said she proper likes me and when she was going to kiss me i told her i have a girlfriend. The thing is, i dont. I just know that i want someone else.
I'm going to the cinema tomorrow, i want to invite Lauren aswell, but i doubt i'll talk to her before then.
Lauren is the most important person in my life at the moment and i just can't explain how much she means to me. Imagine David whats his name to Helen (the X-files guy), its like that but times ten.
I dont know what to do about her though because i dont know where i stand. Sophie sent her a message today asking her out for me but i know she'll say "dunno" or no.

I found this song that really explains it haha.

I'm the type of person who gets bored REALLY easily, thats why i dont keep my friends because i get bored. Theres the odd ones that i dont with like, but im not bored of Lauren.
I wont shut up :)

I was talking to Emma last night about certain little traits that people do that i love, and the one i said about Lauren was the looks she gives me. I love her i really do.


Sorry :) i'll stop.

Iyuhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

In a bit of a random mood at the moment.
Not sure quite what to think of the last few days, told Lauren i was in love with her, met Jess (again), found out my friend from work died and planned my party.
I went skating with Lauren and Jess today, i rather enjoyed it apart from being pushed over by Lauren, although on the plus side i pulled her down with me (:
The night before i was talking to Jessica on msn and she ended up coming skating with us, the night i was talking to her she asked me about Lauren and for some reason i told her EVERYTHING. More than i've told anyone about this certain situatuion before. So obviously she made hints at this. I said "Jessica, dont." And she said "What dont tell Lauren you fancy her".
Yeah, i could of died, but in the end it was good because i can easily talk about liking Lauren in front of her now.
She also said "David, hold Laurens hand." and i didnt but she said it to Lauren and we went round together, its not much but to me these little things mean the world to me.
An hour and a half into skating Jess felt ill so we took her home and went for a drive.
We're planning on going to the cinema tomorrow.

My friend from work died, last thing i said was "See you tuesday".
And now i wont, i feel proper sad about this!
I got a phone call from Julie late night last night, while i was waiting for Helen to come on MSN, then i was quite awkward with H because if i wasnt waiting for her i wouldnt of got the call i really didnt want.

Gutted.

I Miss My Best Friends :'(

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River Deep, Mountain High (Just happened to be on)

Last night it was Julie from deli's leaving party. I drove to "The Goose" and drank J2o, which i got asked for ID?! And then we went to Cactus Jacks for a meal, which was nice but i was sober.
And after we went to Flares, Biscuit Billys and Aruba... But i was still sober as i was driving. Luckily Toni (who i was taking home), wanted to go. So i took her home and parked my car round the corner of my house so my parents wouldn't see it then got a taxi back to town. Not returning until 5am. The thing i learnt from this; i cant enjoy a night out without being drunk.
Beckie from work, who is one of the three muskateers, keeps making hints that i should have sex with her. And i told Ellen (the other muskateer) who told Beckie everything i said! What a total backstabbing bitch.
And while i'm talking about backstabbers, my Olivia has so obviously bitched about me to Elle the little creep.
I met Lauren and Kate today, to say im on and off with Kate, her best mate's quite fine!
Also also.. On the subject of best mates, i just happened to mention something about going away with Lauren, Sarah and Jessica to Helen and she just kind of seemed to, shy away from the idea, as if either i'm not good enough, or i dont know.. =/
Lifes not getting any better.

UV Partyy!

Well, last night i went to the UV party at Trilogy.
I quite enjoyed it apart from the 8,402,084 morons that went.
I managed to get 3 numbers, one of Hayley from work, who although is rather attractive, didn't seem too impressed. One of Rachel, the hot barmaid that i seem to be getting along with, and one of a random barmaid that just wanted my number. As well as this, an old lady kept kissing me on the lips because she wanted a toy boy, it's safe to say that i escaped as soon as i could.
And being randomly stalked on the way home wasn't a bonus either.
And tonight its Julie from works leaving party, apart from the fact i don't know what to wear, I'm dubious about spending a lot of money as I've still got to pay for the damage to the Muppet's car that i crashed into.
And i STILL need to buy plants for my aquarium otherwise my five fish called Lauren will die because there tank isn't big enough, and if they're anything like the person they're named after they will probably die just to piss me off (not Lauren Oakes, before i get lynched).
Only a short blog today, can't be arsed.

I'm just going to write and see what happens.

I always read blogs but never write, and so for a change, inspired by one of my best friends, i'm going to give this a go.
I'm not sure where i'm at with my life at the moment, i tend to act as if everythings going to be okay and smile whereas i'm actually after a good cry but i refrain based on the fact that i sound like a manic depressant when i get going.
I'm going to Doncaster College next year to study public services, I want to be a police officer although people think i'm going to be rubbish at it. I know i did rubbish in my A levels, but i dont the grades to get into college so who cares?
I crashed my car today, nothing major, couple of scratches on the other persons bumper (which he obviously thinks is worse than it really is, the muppet). But i feel really... i can't think of the word, but nothing major really happens to me, and it just kind of brought me back to earth.
My love life.. AHA! Next joke please. I don't know where i'm at with that, i'm supposed to be seeing someone, Kate. But based on the fact that i like her best friend, lauren, more than her.. that isn't going to work. The first and only person i've ever been in love with is back on the horizon, although i don't think she see's me as a boyfriend, just a friend, which much to my dismay, i am quite alright with. And Julie, old Julie, the stunning 20-odd year old from work, who said today.. "I found the perfect guy but he's just too young", well great!

And friendship. Amy, Emma and myself are clearly as strong as ever although i still know i'm being used, i just deny it to myself, i need to loose them, i just can't bring myself too it.
And 'HLD' is back on, which i totally adore.. The time i have one without them girls is just unthinkable and i want to do things more proper this time, in person.

Anyway, mini-rant over.