I'm just going to write and see what happens.

I always read blogs but never write, and so for a change, inspired by one of my best friends, i'm going to give this a go.
I'm not sure where i'm at with my life at the moment, i tend to act as if everythings going to be okay and smile whereas i'm actually after a good cry but i refrain based on the fact that i sound like a manic depressant when i get going.
I'm going to Doncaster College next year to study public services, I want to be a police officer although people think i'm going to be rubbish at it. I know i did rubbish in my A levels, but i dont the grades to get into college so who cares?
I crashed my car today, nothing major, couple of scratches on the other persons bumper (which he obviously thinks is worse than it really is, the muppet). But i feel really... i can't think of the word, but nothing major really happens to me, and it just kind of brought me back to earth.
My love life.. AHA! Next joke please. I don't know where i'm at with that, i'm supposed to be seeing someone, Kate. But based on the fact that i like her best friend, lauren, more than her.. that isn't going to work. The first and only person i've ever been in love with is back on the horizon, although i don't think she see's me as a boyfriend, just a friend, which much to my dismay, i am quite alright with. And Julie, old Julie, the stunning 20-odd year old from work, who said today.. "I found the perfect guy but he's just too young", well great!

And friendship. Amy, Emma and myself are clearly as strong as ever although i still know i'm being used, i just deny it to myself, i need to loose them, i just can't bring myself too it.
And 'HLD' is back on, which i totally adore.. The time i have one without them girls is just unthinkable and i want to do things more proper this time, in person.

Anyway, mini-rant over.