Rusty Halo

The Script

"Next day i'm your super girl out to save the world, and it keeps getting better"
The rest of that song from before.

So today has been quite good.
Picked up my girls and Baz from school then had tea at Laurens.
Then we went for a mission where we fell out, made up, i nearly got drowned, planned a 'hot day' tomorrow (which i swear to god i cant wait for!!!!!!) and then went back home as i had dancing.
My grandma was telling me today about how her and my grandad got together when she was sixteen and they got engaged on my grandmas eighteenth (like me and Lauren plan), moved in together when she was nineteen (like me and Lauren plan) and got married when she was twenty (like me and Lauren plan). She said if its serious then we should start saving just a couple of quid a week but by the time we get married at twenty we'll have quite a bit, so me and Lauren agreed on the idea. My grandma proper understood me about my relationship with Lauren cause she has had the young romance that your parents didnt really belive in.. It was lovely hearing her stories about what it was like when they were dating, sounds EXACTLY like me and Lauren :)
I think i'm on my way to being BEST FRIENDS properly with my Helen. Which is good cause i love her tons and she knows it, we get on so well cause we're so different and we often bounce ideas and stuff off each other.
Then tonight i went to Laurens to watch DH...
OMFG LAURENS HALLOWEEN COSTUME..
BEAUT OR FUCKING WHAT!!!
I can't wait for that night :)

Anyway im gonna go to bed happy tonight.
And im gonna do my DH in bed, I PROMISE :D

Mambo

Helena Paprizou

"some days i'm a super bitch, up to my old tricks but it wont last forever."
Thats me ;)
I'm gonna behave. No arguments with my Helen and no strops with my Lauren.
I dont want to lose Helen and if i carry on i will.
So i agree to behave, i promise.

I'm picking Lauren up from school tonight, then staying with her till seven.
I need to clean my room cause i don't want to stay out with Lauren in the car until seven and her dad will be home. But i cant be arsed. I should really.

Hmm.. Decisions.

Keeps Getting Better

CHRISTINA AGUILERA

I dont show emotion to a certain type of person.
I person i feel to be in major control, and a person i respect way too much, like parents, teachers and this one particuar girl.
I know i went way to far last night and i dont want it to be the end of us.
My mistakes come quite often and i understand it's a constant challenge to remain my friend.
I didnt put it in my blog cause id feel you think it was a sob story but the majority of the upset today was cause i betrayed my best friend and i feel so bad.
Helen.
I know its only a word, but i mean it from the bottom of my heart.
I'm sorry.
x

Before The Worst

The Script

Well after a day of worrying, i didn't get finished :)
She actually did just wanna talk to me about everything and get my side of what happened. I never realised Helen thought i asked Hafid to ask Helen if i was possesive, which i clearly never.
We had a right good talk again tonight, and i still feel like i want to be with her for the rest of my life.
So thats an update on my depressing day!

Girls

Sugababes

"Sometimes it takes a disaster to learn a lesson"
GEE YA THINK?!

Well i've just got up at twenty five past one, i rang in college saying i was sick today but the truth is i'm in pieces.
I had a big argument with Helen last night.
I convinced myself that she hates me and got Hafid to ask her but he told me something she said about me which wasn't to nice to hear from your best friend. But then she says i made Hafid betray her which to be fair i did but i didn't mean for THAT to happen =/
And now this morning i got a text from Lauren saying "Im catching school bus home tonight.ill text you when im home cos i need to talk to you. loveyou x"
Meaning by the end of today i wont have a girlfriend.
I totally don't know what i'd do without Lauren! So that explains why i've been in bed crying since ten past eight this morning.
We're meant to be going to my Grandmas for dinner tonight, how do i explain that i dont go out with Lauren no more? She loves Lauren and it makes her happy to know i've finally got a nice girlfriend and she will more than likely get to come to my wedding. But if she finishes me then i know for a fact it'll break her heart, aswell as mine.
I really do love Lauren and i'd do anything for her, its a shame that one little mistake is about to ruin everything good in my life.

The Promise

Girls Aloud


Well todays been rather.. SHIT
My dad hit me today, the bastard is giving up drink and so feels he needs to get rid of his fustrations on me..
I was meant to be at Laurens tonight but shes tired so i was condemed to home where he decided to start cause i had music on too loud last night.
I had to tell Amy to get fucked today, she wants to be friends again and i dont cause all i do is get used and hurt, i just cant take it. Emma's not so bad but Amy's the worst.
Im always being asked out just for booze then getting fucked off by them..

Im sick of making small talk with people, i really am. I might delete every bar two or three on msn (:

Laurie and i had a right good talk today, we've got really close recently and i reckon its forever.

Anywayyyyyy am off t argue (Y)

Breakeven

THE SCRIPT

Well this weekend has been, rather.. different?
Me and Helen had yet another argument at football. I'm not going to talk about that, she knows what i think and how i'm willing to change.
Me and Lauren had the most AMAZING heart to heart ever (:
We proper spoke about things that upset us, our fears, our goals, our family issues and what we love each other.. Then i let her take me to the edge of the canal which is good to say i have a MASSIVE fear of canals. Then today we went for a walk at the nature reserve near sprotborough and it was well good talking about our future together, just little things like that make my day.
She really makes me day. She's the most important thing in my life and i love her so much, she doesn't understand what she means to me and i'd be more than lost without her. I swear i've never been so in love.
Anywayy cba to type, sorry :)

I Turn To You

Christina Aguilera

OMFGGGGGG

Seriously :[
My mum's gotta go for a meeting at school today.
Rebecca (my sister) told her teacher at school that she had a bad dream about when our dad used to beat us up and so the teacher reckons he still does it and she's concerned for her welfare.
My mum thought it was cause of stress and i just told her the real reason.
Then my mum started crying and cause i was at the top of the stairs and she was at the bottom i went down to hug her, and she said "i do everything for you kids and its never enough, you turned into a demon child and she's heading in the same direction".

YOU FAT SLAG SHUT THE FUCK UP!
She had the cheek to say "You may of got a smack harder than you should of done but she never"
ERM I THINK SHE DID, WE WAS BOTH BEAT UP FOR EIGHT YEARS OF OUR FUCKING LIFE WHILE YOU WAS OFF AT WORK IF YOU EVER BOTHERED TO FUCKING NOTICE?!
I need to get out of this fucking house!
I would move into my Nanas but its too much messing about and i'd have no internet, Lauren wouldnt be allowed over and id not be allowed town.
Seriously though my mother thinks that because i had a bad stage last year and earlier this year that im still the little gremlin i was before, which im really not. Laurens changed me for the better. Oh and she complains im never in and she wishes she could see me a bit more! Tuesday night when i stayed in she never said a word to me AT ALL.

Fuck sake woman, i hate you.

Tattoo

JORDIN SPARKS

MORNINGGGG!

Well i've never got up so early in donkeys :]
Last night me and Helen slept at my nannas, it was amazingly shit!
We had a cool mission up to Sprotborough Canal first like then back to Laurens house where Lauren told me that Danny Riley had asked her out and said "go out with both of us and see which one you feel comfortable with".. And my beaut girlfriend told him where to stick that idea :]
So...
Im poor, owe out £40 and am well overdrawn on my bank account cause of my phone bill.
Argh!
Anyway must go wrestle with my hair ready for college...

I Could Be The One

STACIE ORRICO



Haha here's the letter i sent to Morrisons about me leaving, im well proud.


Dear Jill,
I am writing to let you know that I will not be coming in anymore as I no longer wish to work for the Doncaster store. After numerous complaints about bullying and asking to be moved departments, nothing was done and I am still expected to attend?! This is not up for negotiation. I also got a letter about the disciplinary on 14th October at around 1pm, when the hearing itself was 14th October at 11am, very well organised I must say.
Please arrange a time when I can return my uniform and locker key.


Yours sincerely





David Hunter


Im mint yes?

Miss Independant

BY NEYO - download it kids ;)

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
YOU FUCKING ANNOY ME AND I HATE YOUUUUUU
(to blogger)
i just generally hate writing blogs, but i know i have to or i get clinically depressed about stuff haha.

So, weekend from HELL.

Began at half ten saturday morning, with me and Helen going to watch Lauren play football.
*before i begin, Helen, dont complain cause you did your version in your blog ;)
I told Lauren i was gonna come watch her every week after Maria told me about Lauren getting upset all the time about nobody coming to watch her. When i mentioned this to Helen she wasnt too impressed and said that it was just her mum, which i can understand but surely the girl needs some support (and to be fair im not saying that because Lauren's my girlfriend, im saying that because any girl would want somebody to be there, even just watching.) But NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO this counts as me being a dick. So i'll end that topic abruptly as me and H agreed we would both go as often as we can, as a team (:

Then me and Lauren did something which i cant remember, then i came around again later to find Mitchell pissed out his face on Laurens living room floor. After having a HUGE argument with my dad, getting hit and thrown out.. little comments from the little bastard proper got to me. But i couldnt tell anyone because i dont like people knowing things about my family cause its so fucked up. After witnessing him grope my girlfriend and hurling abuse at me i decided i couldnt take it and went upstairs to do something im not too proud of. Then when i came down Mitchell was on the floor at the bottom of the stairs so i leant over and said "come on mate" and he said "david?" and i said "yeahh?" and leant further forward to listen to what he was about to tell me and he grabbed my by the hair and swung to hit me in the face so i grabbed his arm clutching my scalp and pushed it down. At which point Helen walked around the corner screaming at me because she thought i had pushed Mitchell over, which i hadn't. I proper couldnt take being shouted at anymore so i had to get out. I ran to the end of the street, sat on the curb and cut myself again. Its stupid, it wasnt as such a release, it was a cry for help. So i walked back into the house to have Lauren tell me i was in trouble with Helen. I walked over and she gave the dirtiest look possible and raised her eyebrow (which she stole from me). I said "Helen i've got a problem" and she replyed "Yeah, me.". Total Helen and David quote there.
Anyway after i told her, and smeared blood on her, (sorry Helen) i realised that no matter how much my best friend hates me at times, she's always going to be there for me.
Then again today Mitchell and Barry were hitting me outside my car and so i kicked them back as Lauren locked the car from the inside and i couldn't just stand there. And Mitchell got all aggresive and hurled me against the car then put me in a headlock, pushing my head into the car wingmirror which broke off (cunt). Then i got in the car, totally pissed off at this, and Lauren had a go and so i snapped and shouted back. She wouldnt even touch me so then we had to go and make up, i know im a dickhead to Lauren sometimes and i do take alot of stuff out on her but its because i know i can do it and not lose her. I know that it upsets her and so im going to stop it. I told her i'll change for her but she said not to, im perfect how i am, she just doesn't like it when we argue.
Bless.
Then again im not saying all of this weekend was terrible.
Me and Helen had a cool little mish to find icing.
Me and Jessica had fun playing about (i dont get to do much with Jess, just me and her, so it was cool to sorta bond).
Me and Lauren told each other what we love about each other.
Lauren got something in her hair ;).
Me and Lauren went bowling.
Finally got my Desperate Housewives episode started on FanFiction.
Me and Luana planned our next mission.
Went out for Beckiis birthday.
Might of found ANOTHER new job.

So yeah.
Thats my weekend pretty much.

When I Grow Up

Oh My Days, Can't Belive Ive Been Doing Song Titles And I Didnt Do This Beast Of A Song!

Anywayyyyy.
Opening night for 'Charlie and the chocolate factory' was tonight and the play itself was average. But my god, the second act wasn't half amazing! It was full of sketches and i swear to god i loved every minute.
First we did 'City Watch' in which i play a drunk glaswegian (sp?) called Daz who happens to be in a chip shop. It was really funny and we got tons of laughs. Then the next time i was on was for 'No place like Rome' and i was a very gay roman called Dubious. I swear to god i love this character, you can have so much fun with him. Dont think our Lauren was too impress mind. Got ALOT of laughs and managed to pinpoint a member of the audience and embarres him, and when i was offstage i heard him ranting about wanting to leave. LOL!
Then we left and me and Lauren made up about everything, i've really missed her these last few days and i dont want for her to get bored. We're meeting up tomorrow, only for two hours and that's all im getting till sunday so i'll have to make these two hours drag so it feels like im with her for longer ;] ahaa.
I proper want to start writing. I used to and i used to be well good but i really cant anymore. Helen inspires me but im still shit. So tonight im gonna climb into bed and give it a go :)
Oopht forgot to mention..
The Besties were planning on rocking Scotland this month but doesn't look like we can. I was SO excited for that! PROPER gutted man.
Anyway
Am Off To Write.
Innah Bizzle ;]

Waiting

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
Im not happy!
So GG totally got me in the dog house.
She asked me for a lift then made out to everybody i was going to drive her down a country lane and touch her up!
She made Lauren think that i think she can't trust me which to be honest isn't true, i know Lauren trusts me and i trust her just as much!
And so in a total mood last night i sent a right abusive text and now i think Lauren will get mad about it all and i'll end up losing her.
Me and Claire had a right good afternoon bitching about the whole situation.
She's off ill and i have the afternoon off.
Meeting Helen tonight, lets see how much trouble im in.

Forgive Me

Yes another song title as my blog title.
Leona Lewis tonight.
So this week we began full on rehersals for our production which opens on thursday.
Its sold out for the full run, thats proper good.
So yesterday was technical rehersals, to be honest we didn't do all that much.. it was more for us to help make props and shit but instead me and Laura went to the shop, bought 2 bottles of irn bru WKD and put it in a normal irn bru bottle and got pissed. It's a little wierd at PYT cause boht Laura and Megan fancy me so its scary being alone with either of them incase they come onto me haha.
Tonight was dress rehersals and it was SO funny! We just laughed onstage for the full two hours!
Even though i was really shit, i got told i was good and my characters keep getting better.. BONUS :)
Opening night tomorrow, my mum, grandma and some other losers are coming from my family BUT my best ever friend and herr beaut sister (who just happens to be my amazing girlfriend) are coming with some of H's cronies. I was thinking, although me and Helen aren't as close as her and Cassy/Hafid (dependant on who she's loving at that moment) she proper is all i have got apart from Laurie. I don't let her know how amazing she actually is (based on the fact everyone else does it and she will sooner or later have to use the back door). So im clinging onto her at the moment. And im taking her to town friday night!
Anyway i ran outta things to say so am off :)