Oh My Days

I wrote a really depressing blog earlier and now im going to change it because nothing in life can be THAT BAD.
I mean, although i found out 98% of my friends are two faced back stabbing wankers, i know ive always got two i can rely on, my girls.

HLD :D
love you two tbf,
x

I Told You You'd Live To Regret It

Right so i've been to town tonight, slightly tipsy but i know what i'm on about.
Drunken minds speak sober hearts and what not.
I got this girls number in town, called Lucy, shes 6 months older than me but looks alot older.
She said she proper likes me and when she was going to kiss me i told her i have a girlfriend. The thing is, i dont. I just know that i want someone else.
I'm going to the cinema tomorrow, i want to invite Lauren aswell, but i doubt i'll talk to her before then.
Lauren is the most important person in my life at the moment and i just can't explain how much she means to me. Imagine David whats his name to Helen (the X-files guy), its like that but times ten.
I dont know what to do about her though because i dont know where i stand. Sophie sent her a message today asking her out for me but i know she'll say "dunno" or no.

I found this song that really explains it haha.

I'm the type of person who gets bored REALLY easily, thats why i dont keep my friends because i get bored. Theres the odd ones that i dont with like, but im not bored of Lauren.
I wont shut up :)

I was talking to Emma last night about certain little traits that people do that i love, and the one i said about Lauren was the looks she gives me. I love her i really do.


Sorry :) i'll stop.

Iyuhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

In a bit of a random mood at the moment.
Not sure quite what to think of the last few days, told Lauren i was in love with her, met Jess (again), found out my friend from work died and planned my party.
I went skating with Lauren and Jess today, i rather enjoyed it apart from being pushed over by Lauren, although on the plus side i pulled her down with me (:
The night before i was talking to Jessica on msn and she ended up coming skating with us, the night i was talking to her she asked me about Lauren and for some reason i told her EVERYTHING. More than i've told anyone about this certain situatuion before. So obviously she made hints at this. I said "Jessica, dont." And she said "What dont tell Lauren you fancy her".
Yeah, i could of died, but in the end it was good because i can easily talk about liking Lauren in front of her now.
She also said "David, hold Laurens hand." and i didnt but she said it to Lauren and we went round together, its not much but to me these little things mean the world to me.
An hour and a half into skating Jess felt ill so we took her home and went for a drive.
We're planning on going to the cinema tomorrow.

My friend from work died, last thing i said was "See you tuesday".
And now i wont, i feel proper sad about this!
I got a phone call from Julie late night last night, while i was waiting for Helen to come on MSN, then i was quite awkward with H because if i wasnt waiting for her i wouldnt of got the call i really didnt want.

Gutted.

I Miss My Best Friends :'(

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River Deep, Mountain High (Just happened to be on)

Last night it was Julie from deli's leaving party. I drove to "The Goose" and drank J2o, which i got asked for ID?! And then we went to Cactus Jacks for a meal, which was nice but i was sober.
And after we went to Flares, Biscuit Billys and Aruba... But i was still sober as i was driving. Luckily Toni (who i was taking home), wanted to go. So i took her home and parked my car round the corner of my house so my parents wouldn't see it then got a taxi back to town. Not returning until 5am. The thing i learnt from this; i cant enjoy a night out without being drunk.
Beckie from work, who is one of the three muskateers, keeps making hints that i should have sex with her. And i told Ellen (the other muskateer) who told Beckie everything i said! What a total backstabbing bitch.
And while i'm talking about backstabbers, my Olivia has so obviously bitched about me to Elle the little creep.
I met Lauren and Kate today, to say im on and off with Kate, her best mate's quite fine!
Also also.. On the subject of best mates, i just happened to mention something about going away with Lauren, Sarah and Jessica to Helen and she just kind of seemed to, shy away from the idea, as if either i'm not good enough, or i dont know.. =/
Lifes not getting any better.

UV Partyy!

Well, last night i went to the UV party at Trilogy.
I quite enjoyed it apart from the 8,402,084 morons that went.
I managed to get 3 numbers, one of Hayley from work, who although is rather attractive, didn't seem too impressed. One of Rachel, the hot barmaid that i seem to be getting along with, and one of a random barmaid that just wanted my number. As well as this, an old lady kept kissing me on the lips because she wanted a toy boy, it's safe to say that i escaped as soon as i could.
And being randomly stalked on the way home wasn't a bonus either.
And tonight its Julie from works leaving party, apart from the fact i don't know what to wear, I'm dubious about spending a lot of money as I've still got to pay for the damage to the Muppet's car that i crashed into.
And i STILL need to buy plants for my aquarium otherwise my five fish called Lauren will die because there tank isn't big enough, and if they're anything like the person they're named after they will probably die just to piss me off (not Lauren Oakes, before i get lynched).
Only a short blog today, can't be arsed.

I'm just going to write and see what happens.

I always read blogs but never write, and so for a change, inspired by one of my best friends, i'm going to give this a go.
I'm not sure where i'm at with my life at the moment, i tend to act as if everythings going to be okay and smile whereas i'm actually after a good cry but i refrain based on the fact that i sound like a manic depressant when i get going.
I'm going to Doncaster College next year to study public services, I want to be a police officer although people think i'm going to be rubbish at it. I know i did rubbish in my A levels, but i dont the grades to get into college so who cares?
I crashed my car today, nothing major, couple of scratches on the other persons bumper (which he obviously thinks is worse than it really is, the muppet). But i feel really... i can't think of the word, but nothing major really happens to me, and it just kind of brought me back to earth.
My love life.. AHA! Next joke please. I don't know where i'm at with that, i'm supposed to be seeing someone, Kate. But based on the fact that i like her best friend, lauren, more than her.. that isn't going to work. The first and only person i've ever been in love with is back on the horizon, although i don't think she see's me as a boyfriend, just a friend, which much to my dismay, i am quite alright with. And Julie, old Julie, the stunning 20-odd year old from work, who said today.. "I found the perfect guy but he's just too young", well great!

And friendship. Amy, Emma and myself are clearly as strong as ever although i still know i'm being used, i just deny it to myself, i need to loose them, i just can't bring myself too it.
And 'HLD' is back on, which i totally adore.. The time i have one without them girls is just unthinkable and i want to do things more proper this time, in person.

Anyway, mini-rant over.